Hurry up and wait...

Here we are, hurry up and wait with SSI. They keep asking for more information by X date, then schedule MD appointments two weeks away. I must say, the guy handling my case is very polite and considerate for someone who will probably be declining my initial application for disability. After that, I'll have to get a lawyer involved who will then take 1/3 of the past income due for their services. Well, better 2/3 than nothing, but it still irks. How many people apply for disability or workman's comp who are really perfectly healthy and able to lead a normal life but who just want to sit on their butts and do nothing?

When I look back now, it's hard for me to believe that I used to be hyperactive. Now the closest I get is when  I empty out the dishwasher and restock it. After that I'm exhausted. I can't even contemplate working a 1 hour day, let alone 8. I've been told I shouldn't even worry about it but I fret nonetheless and have little else going on to keep me occupied. Did you notice how little good TV there is? That leaves the internet. I also recently got a device called Roku, which is supposed to allow you to project your internet stuff on your TV set. I'm going to give it a try and see what happens.

This past week I have been off all natural remedies because I spent the weekend before last sleeping about 12 to 20 hours a day and feeling crappy while I was awake. This was due to herxheimer, or die-off, reactions because, I think, I have been taking too much of the remedies without a break. I found out that natural remedies actually work better if you take time off from them periodically, unlike pharmaceutical meds which require you to continue taking them nonstop until the prescription runs out.  So I will be taking the remedies Monday through Friday and taking the weekends off so I'm not sick and exhausted all the time. This may mean that it will take longer to treat my conditions, but at least I won't be mistaken for a zombie in the apocalypse.

One good thing--even without the remedies, the skin parasites continue to die and come out of my skin. I would be more grossed out by it if I hadn't had to deal with it for years now and if I hadn't been a nurse and compelled to see all sorts of things that make this seem like small potatoes, relatively speaking. I can only assume that, if the parasites are dying, the lymes is also dying, since the same antibiotics that kill the parasite's vital bacteria also kills lymes. Also, my mental status and vision have been slowly improving over time and, while still not perfect, are much better than six years ago when I moved in with my elderly father who had to take care of ME instead of the other way around.

I have already started taking the teasel root, andrographis, and cat's claw elixers, along with a detox blend obtained from the same company. The teasel root and cat's claw are being tested for treatment of lymes and found to be promising. I am also taking Microlactin and Sea Buckthorne daily, with 4-8 ounces of colloidal silver twice a week. I think this is a potent cocktail.

It's funny--I've seen commercials for a special on the History Channel about the potential for pandemics to wipe out large segments of the world's population at one time. This makes me laugh because they talk about how any disease could be anywhere in the world in 8 to 24 hours. That is what I've been saying about the black fly that bit me and gave me the skin parasite. These flies are already in Africa, South America, Central America, the Carribean Islands, and the Middle East, so they're telling us that "we don't have that here"? BULLSH*T. The medical community doesn't want us to find out that it's here, it's in all our living and vacations spots, and anyone can get it. Remember how they denied HIV and AIDS for so long, calling it the "gay disease" or the "drug abuser's disease" until some hapless housewife acquired it from a roaming husband? It's the same thing here. Imagine the panic if people found out they could acquire a skin parasite that could potentially blind them over time and there is no cure for it? The only thing that helps is the same medication given to dogs to prevent heartworm and which I also used to keep the parasites from reproducing and spreading more than they already had.

Well, already tired and need to take a break from typing. I will continue later when I feel a little more alive.

Back again, after an illness-induced hiatus. Seems I acquired some ailment which included palpitations with runs of tachycardia (fast heartbeat which is felt in the chest with occasional thumps), increased fatigue, shortness of breath, and dry cough. This has actually been going on for about 3 weeks, with one weekend spent sleeping a week ago. I've been taking colloidal silver 4 oz 2x/wk and am now taking something called sea buckthorn oil, which seems to be working on the problem. As an article stated:

"In the 12th Century BC, the ancient Greeks in Eastern Turkey turned their horses out to die after a battle. They were shocked when the horses came back days later rejeuvenated with shining coats. The miracle was traced to the sea buckthorn plant."

Worth trying, no? I think so. I even got the facial cream, which comes in a little squirt bottle, but a little goes a loooonnnnggggg way. I've been putting it on my skin wherever there are inflamed areas or open lesions and they seem to be healing more quickly. So far the palpitations seem to be lessening and I'm feeling just a tad stronger. I read where I should take it for 30 days at 2000 mg dose twice a day. 

I'm trying to stay stress-free while waiting for SSI disability while watching my resources dwindling away. There are other things I have to do as well when/if I get the energy. I signed up for Netflix on my computer so I'm not at the mercy of TV programming and, at 8 bucks a month, I may even cancel Encore, which rarely has anything interesting on anyway and is 12 bucks a month. During one good day I signed up for LifeLock (remembering that my crappy ex used some of my address and job info to create a bogus identity a few years back, probably to open fraudulent credit cards. Thankfully, it didn't impact me any since it wasn't in my name or use my SSN, but I filed a police report against him anyway. Bastard.) I checked my credit report ("Good"--Yay!) and discovered that I can get things from Amazon Prime that are cheaper than the store and in larger quantities than the store carries (6 pound bags of "Sugar in the Raw"! WOOHOO!  I love that stuff). Next I'm going to back up my data with Carbonite so, in case my laptop gets swiped, my data is still intact.

One thing I have to do is get my old computer reconnected to the internet and the printer. My printer driver won't work on my laptop (I didn't ask for Windows 8. I liked Windows XP better, especially the windows browser) so I have to keep the old machine to print things, but when I got the new work computer installed years ago, the sysadmin messed up my internet on the old machine and now it won't connect. After years of working with linux, I'm better at using Konqueror than windows interfaces, so I'm at a loss right now.

It's always something...

BTW--OMG, Joyce, you actually remember when the two of us used to sit and watch "Swamp Thing" and chuckle over Dr Arcane? THAT IS SO COOL! And you're right, they both have that same appeal. Also, did you know the Zorro with Duncan Regehr is on DVD? I just might get it--that was fun to watch and he was sooo cute!

I'm baaack!

Thought for the day: There are few things as distressing as transferring money into checking to cover bills when you have no money coming in.  I really hate this economy. Thanks to many different entities, including greedy-assed bankers and short-sighted politicians, I was let go from my home-based job because a) we got sabotaged in testing (I truly believe this--the person who tested our product deliberately ran it without a vital component so that we grossly failed--when the product was run correctly, we came out near the top of the ratings) so many of our customers dropped us, and b) some of our customers are looking for cheap products instead of good products, which will bite them in the ass eventually but not soon enough to help the company. This sucks moose through a straw. So now I'm applying for SSI, since I still can't work outside of my home and I'll be on the government dole, something I do not enjoy.

My only alternative is to throw everything I know at my ailments and hope they die before I do. Fortunately, due to my research, I know that much of what I'm taking should kill both the lymes bacteria (at least 3 types--oh, joy) and the bacteria that the skin parasite (morgellons/river blindness) need to reproduce and digest their food, which happens to be ME! Currently, I've found that Colloidal Silver is a real winner, with only one drawback--it causes periodic die-off (herx) reactions which can be debilitating for days to weeks, depending on the volume of the bacteria killed. In fact, I just had a bad one today, sleeping for 12 hours straight and unable to get out of bed even for a class I had paid for (fortunately there are make-up classes later on, when I might actually be able to make them).  This is no fun, I assure you.

NOTE: Parts of my blog will deal with my illnesses and how I have been treating them in hopes that others suffering from these illnesses can benefit from my experiences, since medical resources refuse to acknowledge morgellons as a disease entity (in fact, they have denied that many illnesses, including cancer, may be caused by parasites or baterial/viral infections) or that river blindness my exist in the US (since there is no immediate cure, they're probably afraid of a panic if the news got out).

Just to clarify what I said above, colloidal silver is a liquid that can be created using a colloidal-silver generator, which is much cheaper than buying it pre-made. Some people believe that you can turn blue or gray due to it, but they were taking silver SALTS, not colloidal or ionic silver, which is clear with a Tyndall effect--that is, when you hold the glass containing it up to the light, you can see a rainbow effect in the fluid (very pretty but subtle). The water may look a little grayish but it won't tint your skin--I've taken this stuff off and on for years and I'm still the same pallid shade I've always been (except when the oncho/morgellons was really bad, then I was bright pink due to massive skin inflammation due to an allergic reaction to the worms). I take about 4-8 ounces of colloidal silver twice to three times a week, since this stuff doesn't leave the body for a few days. I even combine it with regular water and add a flavoring like MIO or iced tea mix because colloidal silver alone taste a little brackish, like mineral water or water from a can. Actually, the amount you take matters less than the amount of bacteria that dies off at any given time. The toxins released by this die-off causes the herx reaction, which ends when the body eliminates the toxins, however long that takes. I have noticed a profound improvement over time in my condition but the herxes can still be nasty.

This may sound uninteresting to some, but here's the thing--colloidal silver is a great--and natural--antibiotic, antiviral, antiparasitic, antiyeast treatment. Basically, if it's not a part of your body, this stuff can kill it. Another wonderful addition to natural health is coconut oil. This stuff has medium-chain lipid (fats) which are good for your heart and health, contrary to older medical studies. New studies claim that asian countries that use coconut oil for cooking and cosmetics have the lowest cardiac problems of any country in the world. Personally, I use coconut oil on my skin when I'm sitting at home at night rubbing dead parasites out of their nests (sorry for the gross-out factor, but that's my life anymore). You can also eat this stuff, which is largely tasteless, colorless, and odorless, as well as being a liquid at room temperature. I get mine from Amazon (I love Amazon Prime--I tried the one-month free and I think I've already saved a ton on shipping alone. And it's two-day shipping, so I get it really fast! I would recommend it to anyone who uses Amazon a lot.) This stuff is also antiviral and antiparasite. Also, it cleared up my nephew's acne (for as long as he remembered to take it) so it's also antibacterial. You can cook with it like any oil or lard and it will be good for you!

Well, away from medicine for a while. I've found that one good thing about not working is the decreased stress level, which helps the body to use its energies and resources on other things, like killing off invaders. One bad thing about not working is not having an income, which causes stress. You can't win some days.

While I'm  home, I'm working on a few things. I'm taking courses at home that will enable me to regain my nursing license and start a "new" career (I let it lapse because I thought my most recent job would be the one I'd stay with. Will surprises never cease). I've also started investigating the "spiritual" side of life (not religious, spiritual. There's a big difference.) by researching and taking classes. More on that later.

I've also started this blog, partly to stay in touch with people and as a form of at-home therapy, but partly to share what I've learned as I've gone through life and had to deal with the adversities I've encountered. I really want to help others who have similar problems. It may work, it may not, but you get nowhere if you don't try.

Talk to ya later!